Ignorance is blessed

How can I feel now?
How can I feel at all?
Estou tão sozinha agora.
Quero tanto desaparecer.
Desmaiar ao som de alguma musica que me acompanha.
Drowning drowning I'm drowning.
To the sound of laughter I lose my own soul, my essence.
I lost my self when I walked your dark corners.
Your dirty mind.
Your twisted dreams, they still haunt me.
Now I can't go back to what I was,
Nor can I redo myself. It's like the life in me has escaped right when I needed it most.
I fear for death, but I won't say no when it comes.
What was I again?
Oh so happy little child in your heart.
I want to be rude, anti-social.
I can't.
I've gathered too many important dreams to treat them badly.
But oh how I desire to break my own image.
Re-make myself. Now.
I want to find myself again, I want to destroy the mask...
She sticks to my skin, she is now a part of me. Attached to my skin.
Attached to my own veins.
I don't want help.
I know you wouldn't know what to say.

Lately you have been ignoring me.
What can I do?
Nothing.
Just take it with elegance.
Cry when no one is watching.
Laugh when you don't want to.
Smile, smile like you have never smiled before.
I kind of miss you.