I was here,
You were there,
but still I kept you by my side.
My heart raced as we both warmed each other
And as I decided
My heart would stay forever with you.
But I can't wait forever
But I can't bleed whenever....
I am tired... And crumbling inside... And I don't what to do....

Soulidium - Trapped

Feel trapped inside this life
Your bullshit overwhelms me
Nothing is what I get
Please tell me that it's over

Your touch is cold like death
Please hurry get it over
I'm not like you
And you don't see me

You fucked up, did it again
And I'm tired of healing you, sorry
You're stupid and you got no face
And I'm tired of hearing you, sorry

It's time that we realize
That this is really over
I'm losing, falling, dying
Sick of your fucking crying
Your touch is cold like death
Please hurry get it over
I'm not like you
And you don't see me


Jealousy is gone
It's just lost, turned wrong
Sex is so passé
Please don't touch me, fuck me, love me
Please go away

Funny thing...

A funny thing happened.
A while a go, when friends where friends and enemies where unquestionably enemies,
we were sitting in class when we decided to watch an Emilie Autumn lyrics video. And of course, we started singing like the wretched singers we are.
Lurking behind us was a male student, from my class and being as unimaginative as he was he said he watched stuff like that at night.
Well, we were intrigued, most naturally. "But, sir" said I "this is a video of a song." he looked rather confused. "Oh yes I know that... I am talking about scary stuff..." He replied with a smile. Of course me and my dear friend realized right away that what he thought was "scary" in that video was a magnificent and sublime picture of Emilie Autumn that looked actually quite innocent... I think what scared him the most where the lyrics... Go figure.

Striped Stockings

They are a symbol of protection.
A symbol of strength.
A symbol of weakness.
A symbol, not just stockings...

EMILIE AUTUMN'S BOOK my thoughts

First of all, SHOCKING BRILLIANT. I can almost feel her pain trough the pages. IT IS INTENSE, NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART. Ingeniously brilliant.
I am still shocked from what I read, in a really good way. Even though the matter of it is not good.
SHE HAS EARNED MY RESPECT (even more... Is it possible?) AND LOVE.
I just... can't describe it... It is just... Emilie.

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L.O.L.

For I could scream at you, and send you flying out the window, but still I do not.
I wonder why... Maybe to see the day when I'll calmly tell you "I told you so".
Maybe to see the day where I will laugh.
Maybe to see the day where I will stand in a pedestal and wave goodbye to you.
Or maybe because I know what I speak of, and you in a rampage of senseless anger try to have reason in what you do not.
I will keep my calm. I've resent my anger too many times.