One Wish

And to think I was once important,
Oh how important! How important could I ever be!
No don't even try
And to be honest
You were just another one
Because I'm trapped in two holes.
One of them is secure, but will cost me a lot.
The other is falling apart but costs me nothing.
Who will save me?
Who?
Is it you?
Will I be eroded into the night?
It hurts.
I can feel you. But you are with someone else.
You are the right choice.
The only thing with enough truth to be real.
But you are trapped also. Trapped in a million black holes
I'm trying to pull you out,
But you slip away so much.
Oh honey,
I'll wait.
Is there anything else I can do?
The skies cry when they see me.
Broken, burned, and ripped apart.
In fact,
I'm like the clouds.
They belong to nowhere.
But never leave the sky.
I'm running around in circles.
And only you can pull me out.
SAVE ME.
I was wrong to never have chased after you.
Foolish me,
Lost in my memories I fall apart as I see all the opportunities I had.
It's like I was wrong all my life.
I want to erase it all.
Start over and have you by my side.
Yes, I was wrong. Now I can't be happy anymore.
Even the sounds tell me that I was foolish to have left you.
I only ask you,
Why?
Now tell me,
If I had been the only one
Would you have loved me?
Kissed me?
Hugged me?
Made me happy?
Never betrayed me?
Yes?
I know,
I'm dreaming.
But that's what I do to feel alive.
Don't you want to go back to the past?
Do it all again?
Say it all again?
Live it all again?
Do different choices?
And heal wounds before they were made?
Do you believe me when I say
That I would have loved you with my own life?
Oh, I should stop dreaming now.
Wake up you stupid girl.
Should I?
When I look at the moon I see all the past, done with only me and you.
The wonders. The magic. The love. The blood.
I know it's impossible now.
I know, but can we just pretend we are together and happy?
Because, in secret I wish for a world where you would be mine and I would be yours.
Just go your way,
I'll go away.
Stop dreaming,
Live in reality.
But I'm losing my mind.
And letting my heart unwind.
I'm so blind, I'm losing control.
How can you be so you.
I wish... Oh I wish...

Waiting For The Impossible

Will you come get me,
My charming black knight?
I’m still waiting you know.
And the tears that fall are my gift to you.
So I shall wait.
And forever wait.
Because the stars will never line up for me.
And my planets will never notice me.
My lips await yours.
My brain was committed to your love and affection until I saw how much it costs to be loved.
I’d have to leave my pride behind.
And probably learn how to fight.
Make up on, every day.
Pretty smile and shallow as an empty bottle.
No never, my knight will never like me like that.
He will want me as I am,
He’ll want me to never be a good lady with rules and laces around my pretty fake neck.
And as if it was magic,
He will see me as I am.
And gain my trust just like that.
Never do anything to make me cry.
Because I’m sick of tears and screams.


And I thought I was doing what was right for you.
And for me, but nonetheless
I drowned in myself in what I thought was right, and down you came with me.
Oh but everything seemed so right!
But is the right wrong?
And the wrong right?
Funny how life can be.
I thought you were a liar,
But after all,
I was the one who was lying.
Is the darkness always with me?
No matter what, I end up crying.
Yes, I’m suffering.

Crimson Ped Purple Faith Murder

I’d like to write more,
More,
More,
About things you think are hardcore.
Did I ever mention that live is just a burlesque show?
In which you pay with your life.
Crimson red purple faith murder.
And if I’m going down, then fine.
I’ll touch the crimson,
Red,
Purple,
Faith,
Your murder.
Your murder.
Because I think you’re big, and I think you’re small.
Because you are the color of a
Crimson red purple faith murder.
But more,
More,
More,
MORE!
Devil undercover, just another selfish lover.
Save my soul, but oh wait it ran away.

“Charlotte! Bring me my tea!”
And don’t forget to bring my mask of perfection because we have visits today!
Leaking sky, alive yellow stars, ice cold sun that can’t hit my skin.
Perfection is just an illusion like your eyes.
And every time I look into the sky, I see a
Crimson red purple faith murder.

No more lies! No more perfection!
You can’t save me,
But you can’t condemn me!
Oh fairy godmother little child in the moon!
Live a dream with a nightmare in the wind.
So go, go see the stars with a
Crimson red purple faith murderer.
Like you.
Sinking above me.

Clock Work

Time goes by
As the stars die.
In your mind,
I’ll always belong to you.
Oh but how wrong!
Oh more wrong could you be!
Don’t deceive yourself darling,
I will never go back to the past.

Don’t change yourself
You are just fine the way you are
And I’ll just stay as the big fat liar I am.

Deceive me, will you?
Betray me, will you?
Murder me, will you?
Cut me, will you?
Write me letters of love and take me to a hateful war.
Break my thunder, obey your commander.
Break my thunder, obey your commander.
Break my heart, obey your selfishness.

Oh my, where did I put my soul?
Oh my, did I abandon it somewhere?
Oh, it doesn’t matter anymore.
I don’t need to sell it anymore.
So put the mask of deceive and smile at me.
So put the mask of yourself and break free.
Break free.